that moment I had nothing to say…

I would presume myself to be bubbly, smiley and loud… although at times, I dream of being still, quiet and calm.  Isn’t that in all of us… to want to be something or someone that we are not? The “grass is greener on the other side” saying wasn’t created for nothing. If we are short, we want to be tall. Brunettes want to be blonde. Singles want to be married and at times, those who are married just want a weekend get away… all. by. themselves.

A few nights ago, I had a rather lengthy meeting to attend. During our dinner break, the ladies started chatting about a subject that was very meaningful and interactive… yet… I had nothing to say. I couldn’t think of a single word to voice that would allow me to contribute, to play my part in this conversation. To be honest with you (being the talker that I am) this felt strange. For a moment it did… and then I felt the Lord nudge me to just sit… listen… and be still. It was kind of nice to be quiet and peaceful for once. (Remember, I am a talker and usually loud… so for this small moment, my dream of being still, quiet and calm came true).

Why do we feel like we have to formulate an idea, thought or sentence while in a group setting just to feel included? Most of the time, we feel awkward if we are not contributing to the conversation. We all want to be included. When insecurity, doubt and fear creeps in… we always want what the other person has because it appears that they are secure, confident and brave. I would presume that we are all in this together… if we are honest with one another, we all struggle with feelings of fear, doubt and insecurity from time to time.
Wanting to be included and feel accepted isn’t a concept that begins once you become an adult… nope… it is very clear, even on the preschool playground, that an inner desire lies within us all to be incorporated.
If you dare… go back in your mind to when you used to play kick ball in elementary school… you know, the PE teacher would pick two captains… everyone else would line up… and the 2 “chosen” captains would begin to name each person they wanted to be on their team… PURE TORTURE (for all of those who are not considered “most athletic”)!!

In a perfect world… we would all be chosen. accepted. picked first. included and secure. Although we live in a fallen world… we are able to set our hearts on things above and away from the things of this world. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things (Colossians 3:2). God’s word tells us that in Christ we are new creations! Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here (2 Corinthians 5:17).

When feelings of insecurity, doubt and fear creep into a social setting…dinner table… or even while playing a game of kick ball… may these truths from the Word reassure you that in Christ you are included.

1 Peter 2:9-10: But you are A CHOSEN RACE, A royal PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION, A PEOPLE FOR God’s OWN POSSESSION, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were NOT A PEOPLE, but now you are THE PEOPLE OF GOD; you had NOT RECEIVED MERCY, but now you have RECEIVED MERCY.

You are CHOSEN!
You are a child of the KING! (Psalm 45:9)
His banner over you is LOVE! (Song of Solomon 2:4)
Your confidence can rest in HIM! (Psalm 71:5)
You are FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY MADE! (Psalm 139:14)

My heart has really been stirred this past week over the issue of insecurity how so many people are trying so hard to look like everyone else. I stumbled upon a really amazing and somewhat life changing song a few days ago… and it has rocked my world. You will have to tune in to my next post to see what the song is… (sorry… just want to type out my thoughts about the song… so it will have to wait until the next post.) Until then…


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